
Medicinal Herbarium
*
On the fourth floor of the National Museum
of Natural History, leaves and stems and dried
flower heads of native plants are arranged with pins,
coded and labelled, on painted boards – Verbena
officinalis, Adonis vernalis. Some
are as old as I am, all colour drained out of them
as they dessicate and curl. But there is beauty
in their withering, as if these were the bones
of Bulgaria’s flowers, their skeletons. Inside
their glass cases, they tell of loss – and what heals,
what’s worth preserving. Many I recognise, stirred by
a ghost of blue or an elegant thorn, old friends –
Centaurea cyanus, our cornflower,
and Leonurus cardiaca, motherwort.

*
Frosted panes diffuse the brunt of the sun. Silence
plays across the chessboard floor. Other visitors
prefer the drama downstairs of bats and bears,
tigers and eagles, in stricken poses stilled
according to a taxidermist’s whim. Pilgrim
here, I’m more moved by this room of flowers than
the Russian church next door, for all the almond-eyed saints
blessing its walls. I’ve come to ask not for my own soul
to be saved but these tissue refugees, precious
plants – their natural physick, an esperanto
of seed, rib, heart and vein – Laburnum vulgare,
Carlina acanthifolia. Hear my confession,
my sins: irredeemable gravity, this passion
for what can’t be bought or sold, a faith in silence.

*
Another display, devoted to mountain plants,
shows four Vitosha tulips clinging to what’s left
of their green and gold. A recent addition – faint
sign someone still thinks they’re worth saving: more
hope in a speck of pollen than our whole poisoned
anthropocene world. Trollius europaeus.
Today they can’t help looking like an epitaph.
As I leave, descend, all the creatures in the ark
follow me, eyes black with hunger, blame. Beneath
my feet, great cracks in the marble floor are spreading;
a deep fault that can only widen and slide right
open, taking us all down with it – animal,
vegetable and mineral, the country’s biggest
ammonite and its tiniest flake of stolen moon.

9th July 2016